a recap of some much needed recaps

So, it seems that my last post was back in June. Oh my... forgive me blog.

What's been happening in my life?

July
I love July only because I get spoiled rotten (it was planned this way, at least one of the events was, I had no control over the event) July is an entire month of celebration for me. Why... my birthday and my anniversary fall in this wonderful month of July. How did we celebrate? Hmm.. (racking old brain for a memory) Oh yes... the boy reminded me that he had woken up with a painful wrist and spent the morning at urgent care. He did manage to make it out and watch the opening of "Harry Potter." Post Harry, came home and baked cookies for the softball park. It was a pretty mellow birthday. I like them low key and just me and the boy. Plus, the end of the month, we had already planned a nice little getaway to San Diego and to SinCity. The combo of beach and gambling... love it! We visited The Wild Animal Park for the first time and survived Vegas heat. Oh... and I got to finish the final Harry book.

August
I'll just say one word. "Wedding" Too much detail to go into. Just nice to see old folks from college again. Good to see some things don't change and some things do.

September
I started September pondering a purchase, either another luxury purse that I would drool over or an SLR camera. The shutterbug in me won out. I'm now a proud shutterbugging owner of a Nikon D40. I adore my new techie toy. It came in handy as we headed off to Phoenix for a softball tournament.

Phoenix was hot hot hot. Dry heat thankfully but still hot. No matter how much water you drank, you were still dripping sweat and even more sweat. That was just the fans watching, can't imagine what the guys on the field felt like. It was a nice change to hang out with people from my softball park outside of the regular softball park. It did rain in Phoenix, right before we left. That kicked the humidity factor into high gear. Crazy crazy heat turned into sticky, gotta run back for a cold shower heat. Ew. But, the sky rewarded me with the following shot...



and one of my favorites of my favorite player...



I think that's all for now... until next time!

an overdue recap of life's ongoings

What's been up with me? Not that I have alot of readers truely committed to reading my blog. It's been almost two months since my last post. I lag.

Life is finally back to a pace where I "think" I can handle it. But then again, are we really able to handle anything no matter what pace we set for ourselves?

Do you ever find yourself in a drama situation after a while you forgot how you ended up in that drama situation? I've been currently caught up in one of those drama situations. It's been quite a tiresome process of watching, reacting and anticipating what's going to happen next. Thankfully, it's beginning to wind down now and things are somewhat going back to normal. I thought that I had distanced myself from everyday drama only to walk into more. I guess that's that pattern of life. No matter now much you try and avoid something, it's bound to sneak up on you when you least expect it to.

The boy and I have been house hunting in the area. Although we're not quite ready to buy yet, looking and figuring things out that we both like and dislike has been an adventure. We're still on track for around September to be buying a house. I can't wait for the chance to be homeowner, no matter what the headaches are that come with it, at least I know that I won't be losing money paying rent.

You know, I'm at a point where life is back to being ok. I've managed to walk away from a passion of the heart and pick myself up again with other things that I had forgotten were there for me before everything else.

I've come to find that life is full of circles, you go from one circle to the next, it may take a while to move from one circle to another but the one thing I will always have to remember is that each circle is there for a reason, good or bad.

How's everyone doing in my circle? Let me know!

a relationship with my mother in law...

I ran into my mother in law on the way to the coffee house tonight. She was heading home after a long day at her shop. I honked my horn and rolled down the window just to say hi. She asked where I was headed and asked if I was ok. It was comforting.

I think it's pretty ironic that I have what I consider a great relationship with mother in law. Considering that my relationship with my own parents is non-existant. Don't get me wrong.. the relationship isn't all bells and whistles either. She's my husband's mother.. enough said. But needless to say, I couldn't have asked, prayed, or given up my first born for the really comforting relationship I have with her. I try and make the attempt to swing by and say hi and check in on her to make sure that things are ok at least once a week.

I know that I have a certain amount of admiration for her. Along with that admiration comes respect. I don't think I would have had this relationship with her if I didn't have that respect. It's just nice to know that I can talk to her openly and know that she will always have our best interest in mind.

I'm lucky....

back to writing...

I remember back in the 8th grade when one of my favorite teachers of all time, Mrs. T introduced us to daily writing from "The Book of Questions." Back in 2000, I picked up a copy of that book along with another book to inspire me to write on a daily basis. With the intent there, time unfortunately did not permit. Now that I do have more time on my hands, it's back to writing. Writing not just to write but to keep the mind sharp and flowing.

So with that being said, I begin with question one.

For a person you loved deeply, would you be willing to move to a distant country knowing there would be little chance of seeing your friends or family again?

Wow, back in the day, my answer to this question would have been simple. But now that I'm older, it's alot harder to think of the right answer to this question as there are so many other questions that come up. The selfish side to me would say yes in a heartbeat. That would have been my answer in my early twenties. But now, as I approach the mid thirties, I can't say yes without hesitation. Sacrifice and compromise. Isn't that what life is about? One has to sacrifice and compromise in order to obtain happiness. How does love configure into this equation as there are so many types of love in my life? Would I be willing to give up the love I have for my husband and lose those who have been there for me even before I was married? It's not a fair question to ask and it's not a fair question to answer.

I think it's only fair to sit on this question a bit longer. I'll probably come back to it sooner than later....

Moving on....

It's taken me a while to write about this, only because the pain is still fresh. Very early this year, I decided that I had to give up my partnership in the business. Mostly because I disagree with how the business was being run. When it all comes down to it, one of the boys' old co-workers who is in the same industry, plainly put it... "We were working harder, but not smarter."

Why did I decide to walk away from my passion..... I have parts of it it figured out, I didn't like the stressful environments that I was placed into unwillingly, but mostly because I didn't like the person that I had become. It was hard for me to admit that I had changed as a person and harder even so to admit that I had really taken a major toll on my relationship with the one person that supported me the most. Sadly, I had stuck with the business based on the belief of the potential it had. The boy saw it much faster than I did but knew that I needed to come to the realization on my own.

I miss it though. Wallking away cold turkey... must be how smokers feel when they quite smoking. I'm slowly adjusting to life once again... a slower paced life. I do miss the creativity quite a bit. I've looked into art classes in the hopes of having a venue to release and satisfy the creative side of me.

So what's next... family and a house. Thankfully, I have a great job with the person who I was working part time for. She walked with me through the entire situation, making the adjustments with me. The boy and I are looking into buying a house towards the end of the year. But most of all, we're both looking to expand the family unit.

It's been a rough beginning to 2007, but I love how the rest of 2007 is looking.